what stops the flow?

a question which i have been asking myself is: what is it that makes us so stuck in situations and patterns that we so dislike and feel that we don't choose?

apart from the obvious answer that energy flows where attention goes and that we will always attract to us that which we are thinking about (be this judged 'good' or 'bad'), i feel there is more to this than meets the eye.

with all the visualizing that people seem to be doing and with all the knowledge and education going on about life-empowerment, how can it still be that we are not reaching our goals as quickly and easily as we would like to, and is surely possible?

one thing about the law of attraction i tripped on originally is a thing that still forms a bit of a stumbling block for me and that is: is the universe really that simplistic as to give us what we are thinking about without 'feeling out' or understanding the difference in the message between 'i don't want x' and 'i really want x'? shouldn't the energy frequency be very different? yes, both may be offered with a passion but if one thought makes us feel good and one doesn't, should this difference not be a simple thing for the universe to detect and be kind enough to comply to?

so if we assume that the universe is of infinite intelligence as it surely is, then we must also assume that it is not a failure in the 'reading' of the message but a failure in the sending of the message. spinning this further: if we are sending the negative messages out with a negative emotion attached there still must be something other, something positive attached to it to cancel the negativity out, neutralize it to give the universe a 'neutral' reading. i cannot believe that the universe would send us something that we are so clearly attaching pain and/or anguish to. so within us, underneath these bad feelings there must be a feeling that gets satisfied, positive feedback when we receive (once again) the things that we have so long complained about.

maybe it's a matter of 'better the devil you know'. we have been raised to be 'careful' of a wide array of things, circumstances, people etc. since we were children, and this mindset continues on through adult life. as we know about all the things to be fearful about in this big world, when we invite the 'bad things' into our life 'that we know', then it may make us feel safer than inviting 'new bad things' that we don't know and don't know how to deal with. if our constant issues are for example lack of money, overweight and bad romantic relationships, then at least we are not getting war, famine and sickness.

but how do we break away from the safety of our own personal hell?

surely this is only possible if we assume that there is a place where we can be entirely safe? where could this place be?

we are told that it is inside us, we are told that it is the god within, that place of peace that we all carry within us.

we know this is true, we know all knowledge, all peace, all joy, all bliss all good things are inside us. if we know where the place is, how do we access it?

we access it through meditation. meditation is the solution.

om shanti.

here i will write about life as i see it through the filter of this person that i am and this life that i lead.

i believe that love is life, is energy, is the force, is god, is the universe, is bliss, is the divine....when you are not feeling the presence of the above it does not mean that it is not there, it simply means you have blocked yourself from feeling it. in fact it is not really a presence at all, it is what we all are made of. there are many ways we humans block ourselves from feeling our true self and it is a good thing to make it our mission to 'dig deep' and find our true self again...and in the end we are all the same - and in the end we are all one.